It’s still so weird to me that in such short period of time I’ve been through two different worlds. One with my grandpa and one without. I guess I just want to cry every time I think of the moments I spent with him.
the other woman at where i’m currently working (my summer job) is the most annoying, mercurial and horrible person i’ve ever met. my God. she asked me to do things and then told me that i should start learning to do it myself, and then the next day she got angry at me by doing it myself … she kept asking me if i felt boring or anything working there, and then i said it was okay, a little bit (coz it really is the most boring job I’ve ever encountered, and i just can’t lie to myself to say no.), and then later she told me that i wasn’t paying attention and didn’t focus at work and implied that all i learned at school was crap. she taught me, no, actually she just briefly showed me how to work those machines and stuff and expected me to be a pro the next day. and i’ve only been there for 9 days! 3 hours every day! how am i supposed to know!?
what’s worse is that she kept talking and talking and expected me to laugh at her “jokes” and ranted about other people and making cruel comments on others and PLAYED GAMES ON HER COMPUTER WHILE WORKING. i heard thoese game music and sound effect every damn day when i’m working.
i feel like a failure working there because this woman kept making me feel like i’m stupid or retarded or something, when i just shrugged and smiled to dismiss any conversation with her, she would think that i didn’t want to work there (well, apparently it’s correct.)
i just can’t take her anymore. she violates me emotionally and mentally. i never thought i would last this short with a job even it’s my first job. i always take these seriously because i know it’s a way to learn in life, and get experiences, and that i’ve already expected to make mistakes and being taken advantages and being exploited, i know all that, and i accept that. and i’ve tolerated the boring nature of this job, but this woman never teaches me anything, she only makes me feel like the dumbest person on earth! i really just don’t want to go mad because of a freaking summer job and my first job!
if i have to spend one more day with this woman, i think i may start yelling at her or slap her. or both.
i’m about to send out 12 resumes to diferent summer jobs/part time … wish me luck …
most of my friends have gotten summer jobs already …
Y U NO HIRE MEHHHHH~~~
if you really want it, go for it damn it! or you will never know!!!!
i started playing The Sims 3 again couple days ago and i really don’t know what i do with my life and my fuqin exam is not over yet and i’m starting to stress out all over again the end of the exam will be 23th May. i hope that day comes quicker.